13.02.07

Sorry... I've been avoiding you lately, I know. I'm just scared. Father help me. There needs to be a heart change in me again. Please Father soften my heart and help me to remain vulnerable and pliant. Putty in Your hands.

As soon as my heart started to ache, I started to put up my defences, afraid of what you might require, or what others might say. So many "if's" dictating how I live out my realtionship with you, and that's not right. Sorry about that.

Father I know the friends and family that my heart aches with and for right now, please work miracles in them and for them - bring about the emotional, spiritual, physical, and/or mental healing they are needing right now. I'm so glad that you intercede on our behalf.

Father please draw me close. Don't let me let go.
I need You so much. Help me fall even more in love with you. I pray that upon waking my thoughts will be with and remain with You.

Please help me to get some more of the book done tomorrow. Forgive me for indulging my own selfishness today. Let's start fresh shall we?

Please Abba bless me and make me a blessing. Keep me from temptation and deliver me from evil. Help me to love with your heart.
Amen

07.02.07

Well, I do have the best of intentions - to start the day well and with you in the forefront.. please help me to continue on that way as well.

Father, help me with these next chapters, show me what to write and what not to. Please above all, I pray that they glorify you absolutely! That when I share the stories of what you have done and how you consistently draw me close, that it will ring true with the reader and that they will come away loving you a little more.

Help me not to be just self serving and not do the work you have called me to. I admit it's so easy to put off to another time, but help me to instead be diligent.

Thanks for Christina and her willingness to be a part of it. That, in and of itself, is amazing to me. Please bless her for it.

Lead me in Your righteousness, by faith.

Father there are so many people to pray for, and I feel like I barely even scratch the surface, so I'll start at a different end of the list :D
PLease continue to heal my Aunty Lou. Thank you for how you've brought her through this... For all her late night chats with my mum, please continue to let those be a blessing to them both, (And for my other Aunts also.) Please heal them, make them whole, make them healthier than they have been for decades.

On that note Father please continue to call ** to you. Forgive him please, what's worse is I think that he may know exactly what he's doing, but for some reason is holding onto anger and rebellion And because of all this the others are suffering all sorts of hurts. I guess Q is the latest casualty. Father please hold her, reveal to her your great loving kindness, please grow in her a supernatural faith.

And for J, oh Father heal her. Help her to love with your heart. I pray the painful things of her parents divorce won't continue to infect her relationships today.

Father continue to work in B&L drawing them closer, thank you for his healing, now his parents need your intervention, please Father heal the rift that has developed, teach them to love one another truly. Bring them to know you.

And Father I pray that for Mr. CD , shout his name! Halp him to see clearly that your desire is for him. Soften his heart Lord. Please heal him, only you can - the doctors are quite helpless.
Give them some great times as a family. Help them all to enjoy the time together, to revel in each others company even - to show one another love and respect.

Father I pray too for myself and my siblings direct us please Abba (you know my heart knowon all of the unknown , unspoken things... please father hear our heart sighs!)